Fingers thru hair, make it vertical. Too horizontal lately. In 2 weeks it all gets cut off and bleached, start anew.

I almost died today. I was in a bikini, which I consider very fitting, and I didn't want to go down the waterslide again because last time I got water in my nose. So I attempted to climb around the long way, and then I reached a point that I couldn't pass, and there I was clinging to slippery rocks and below me were sharp rocks and swift current
and then my knee dislocated itself and my leg buckled and I screamed and clasped the rockface with my whole body
(and didn't die)
and laid there panting while my friends yelled are you ok but they couldn't reach me, remember, it was impassable.

Half hour later I was back to where they were, and we all agreed I was fine, and then we sat and ate baby carrots and talked about sex and yoga and people we knew from high school and mojitos, and later when I got home my mother said

oh you must have been having lots of FUN to stay OUT so long
and I almost smacked her.

Almost almost almost. I didn't die, didn't die, didn't fight with my mom. I hurt my knee and then came home and took a shower and went to work. That is the truth of it.

today I read
anda who secretly.